RailTraxx

Normally, I tend to keep myself from comparing to other artists and remind myself that I draw for me and me only, but I can't help but feel insecure once in a while. My artwork feels very rigid compared to the many other artists who can draw so dynamically and shade like magic. Seeing other IZ artworks and comparing it to my stuff makes me feel inferior.

I want to draw more dynamically, but it seems so hard to do so, especially in the IZ style. My coloring is also not the best and my shading. I want to create the visions that I have in my head so bad, but when I attempt to draw it out, it turns out bad. I take so long to sketch and is often the step that takes most of my time.

Maybe the art programs I use also tend to not wield the desired results like with those who draw on computers. I use a Samsung Tablet with an S Pen as it allows me to draw directly on the screen and reject my resting palm. I use ibis paint but I've seen artists do so good on that program and procreate which is an iPad only app.

I don't have many friends I talk to here. Looking for an art trade partner can feel so intimidating at times. It's rare when I receive fanart and gifts, but when I do, it means the world to me. I feel as if I don't have much to offer to potential art trade candidates. They often have better skills than I do.

But in the end, I do manage to convince myself that I only draw for the fun of it and as a hobby as I don't plan to make art a profession. But I do want to see different interpretations of my ship at times. But I also don't feel comfortable ordering commissions as I feel they're often pricy, and it's risky to spend actual money on a jpeg.

I'm sorry if you had to read this. I need to get my thoughts out once in a while as it's very rare for me to vent publicly. I will be fine, this phase will pass and I'll be back to doodling. Hopefully my motive comes back before my Birthday comes in April so I can draw a Bday special. Cheerio, my friends :>

Do you guys have plans for Christmas/Holidays?

Thinking about doing some December special for the end of this year. It'll include a lot of my friends Characters/OCs, well the ones who I think are my friends. Like FallenAmbition's Remi, Adrielle-Akuryo's Adrielle and My Favorite creators like EmpressVee's Vee and others who I can't remember at the moment. If you don't want your character included, please let me know, I will understand. I'm still planning so it's not final. Cheers and Happy Holidays!